The G color.................path to rebirth

Now, since my first painting adventure is done and I am very proud owner of one board which is still by all kind of eye evaluations………………………………….. Critical, thoughtful, observant, passing, technical whichever type will still be rating the board as painting.

I was becoming adventurous……………………..may be that is something that I have been born with……………………….. it just has been practiced to critically mitigate risks after many years of IT harassment.

So…………………I actually went up to painting teacher and said why don’t we do another form of mural which requires us to use lime powder all over the board and has elements of texturing(don’t bother to analyze this it just meant little more tougher murals). And teacher smiled and said why don’t you tell me the picture you would want to convert into mural. I was impressed one board old student was actually thinking about what would be the image which should be put up on the new form of mural.
I must be good at some things and some talent definitely resides in some form.

And here me, as always I came up with brilliant idea since texture was the thing that would be highlighted in this form of mural I said let’s do sea beach or cluster of bamboo trees. Did you guys hear bamboo and you know it will be all greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen shades of green. Oh my God …………is it possible that my brain is captured by Angel…………? Angel rules the heart not the brain…………….I thought so.
After slip of tongue I was praying that somehow my painting teacher would say sea beach and I would be happy as I looooooooooove blue. Just blue everywhere in life.

But the Painting teacher and Angel both working in collaboration decided to choose the great bamboo concept. And I have no way of escape as I was the one who came with this great idea. How did I put the Kulhadi on my feet I don’t know but I did. And worst is yet to come there are 4 more people who want to do same theme so 5 of us doing Bamboo concept. I wanted to cry this is going to be really greeny crying.

Angel was just smiling see how I can trap you in your own blue world and convert it to green and everything I was the pioneer in it nobody to blame.

Again board started equally huge 3 feet by 4 feet. I don’t like these huge sizes at all………………… full of green. I was still praying that in this size of board may be we will have only one bamboo stick. No harm in creative thinking….

So all of us great 5 people again prepared the board and than I don’t have words to tell how I felt when I saw the final picture in paper which was going to be “muraled”. The whole 3 feet by 4 feet board had at least 5-6 bamboo trees full length and minimum of 30 bamboo leaves and ya of course 2 chirpy birds. What was this………………… was this forest of bamboo and why cant trees be yellow or red or brown or anything else but I don’t like green. We can have burnt forest also. I was sad and sick and even just the sight of bamboo picture made me feel very green.

And than I had another of my brilliant ideas…………………. one of my great flashes I went up to my painting teacher and said you know I really think instead of all bamboos can we just have some huts and like village scene. And she smiled very aware of my non liking to green and said “No”.

I am just so sad.

The next class came and with my own fingers I drew whole picture on the board and my heart cried.
And than started the project of doing mural. This time all the areas of image which was part of picture has to be textured with lime paste and knife smoothening, roughening it texturing building shapes whatever you say and I said ok let’s think about doing this part which I loved the mural part as there were no colors. Green would come later…………………

All the other people of my bamboo concept use to come in weekdays also and they were just way ahead of me even in mural part which I don’t like. I want to come first even in this………just the kid in me.

And than I think Angel was just passing by and she thought this girl is still working on this mural of green so just let make things little easier and than somehow all other members of bamboo concepts had some other important work and they disappeared……………………… So, I was only one on bamboo project and coming first. Coming first is very important whether you have competition or not is secondary in nature.

But as all good things come to end all mural part of texturing and making whatever shapes was done. Now was the time to color. To my horror teacher says let’s try oil and not acrylic which is different medium and of course I am the first time user of Oil. I was annoyed to think now we have green oil. But, no running away at all…………………………………………and my great teacher smiled and said can you tell me which shade of green is bamboo tree. Hatred poured out from my heart and I said I think all greens still are green and eventually since bamboo forest is on the board we will invariably put all green of world. What is there to choose………………..One thought which was logical.

She said ok so let’s start with base green…………………….ugly looking base green was first coat ……first shade on one of bamboo tree and than shades followed merging all shades of green and shading them with other shades of green. I never even once looked at whole painting with love and care just continued with strokes and brushes and shades of green. And each time my teacher use to stay I think green oil is your favorite……………….. your corrections have gone down like dipped and you are just gelling all greens together into new greens. I used to feel sick at heart and trust me never saw the whole painting……………………..just the though that I am making a green board was so bad. You all might wonder how can someone paint a whole board green and still not see the whole painting. But that is how much I Don’t LIKE GREEN.
And than with minimum hurdle and least corrections I was done with getting the greenery of world on board and than best part making the birds arrived. They are suppose to be colored I can’t have green birds whatever happens in the world. I don’t want to know whether green bird exists or not.
I chose red, yellow and black my pretty colors and imagined n minutest details. How I am going to shade birds which part of 3 inch by 4 inch birds should be what color. You can see when you like something to how much detail you can dream about it. And than of course when I started painting my birds as all human beings know birds are not checker colored they have pretty sane patterns on their body so even if I choose colors of my choice I can only pattern them not chekker them. And my birds my cutie pies were ready. And than painting was ready and I was suppose to see the whole painting.

I wish I could see only my birds and not those 3 feet by 4 feet which was huge green bamboo forest. But the whole class came together to share my green affect with me and there were gasps and appreciation form all corner. My teacher said “Look at whole painting” and I was ashamed of myself any my no green behavior. So saw the whole green bamboo forest painting with my 2 cutie birds and it really looked like nice bamboo mural. Somehow it was just how it should be colors did not matter somehow the whole affect the whole painting mattered how each stroke, each color, each bird and each leaf was done mattered not that it was green.

Somehow this experience forced me to acknowledge that I still am not pakka ghada. I am malleable and ductile to my most basic instincts which made me feel very precious about myself………..really………………made me feel I can change all attributes that I have and make myself something which I am not today………………………….It just makes you believe there is rebirth and for that you don’t have to die ………………….just make murals